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tomorrow night every heartbeat on the stadium will beat as one knowing that once their name is called, it is finally over. the harsh 4 years you seniors had to go through to stand where you are today, knowing that through everything, you finally made it. tears will be shed and laughter will be heard; the memories of yesterday will appear and leave you breathless with nothing to say except "it's over, it's finally over." i'm going to miss all you seniors so fucking much. especially a few of you seniors like monkiee, buddy, and klam. you guys/other seniors made a HUGE impact on my life. not only did you guys become someone i can say "hi" to because you guys were older than me, but you guys also became my friends. maybe the definition of friendship is someone who has and will always be there for you. it isn't necessary to be so close where you hang out every single day and talk about EVERYTHING to but it's the second closest thing you've got next to family. we might not talk or hang out as much because we won't see each other daily but some where on a random day, either one of us will call each other up and say "hey, let's go catch up and chill" or some bs. no more picking on me or making fun of my head, we can go party together still though, haha. "friends come and go" but memories are forever. next year i will know exactly how you all feel, standing together as the class of 2009 knowing that I ACTUALLY PASSED HIGH SCHOOL!! lol jk, of course i am! i'm really REALLY sad you guys have to depart from us, but come on now, we all knew it had to come one day or the other. you all are getting old lol. mMmm when you guys go to college, remember it's not high school anymore,  so welcome to your future. i'll miss you all<3

fck i got sad as i wrote this, i really am going to miss all you seniors though.
i wish you guys the best of luck in the future! don't forget me and i won't forget you! haha

mMmm, night well spent. i'm very tired right now. i must say although toga was canceled and deep down inside i am really angry at the fact it was canceled, tonight was pretty dope. i should get started in monkiees yearbook soon but i'm so lazy i'll work on it tomorrow night when i have energy. so tonight confessions were made and blah blah. school is ending and everything is happening so fast. the last impression i remember was that smirk you gave me, might i say what a great last impression that was lol. i honestly don't know what to write in here right now, but life seems to be stable. there are going to be a lot of people and things i will miss but i'll get pass those. there isn't much left to say for tonight so goodnight world. 

i decided to do another blog since i'm awake and on the phone with gare. yes i am a phone person, i love phoning rather than texting although texting is fun. So i have just realized at the exact time of 1:32am my feelings for Gary are demolished. He even brought up Lucy and instead of getting jealous as i always do, i was more like "ehhh whatever." He still thinks i have feelings for him but what he doesn't know is that my feelings were slowly disappearing. Maybe it's the whole on and off situation but right now it is totally off. there is nothing i need but maybe some things i want. naw mean! so as of now, I, Joanna [enter last name], like nobody! woot woooooot! oh Pierre, oh Pierre...lol NAW, that'll never work. his standards are all high and crap. stupid mofo goes for looks. but i can't blame him. "looks get you there, but personality keeps you there." naw mean jelly beannn! mmmm, who else is there that i think is cute? OH! JACKK JACKK!@<3 but he has a girlfriend ): but he is CUTE! who else in SG....ahh TONY! although he is an underclassmen i think he's cutee. too bad he's a grade younger ): i would so try to get at him but c'mon; senior with a junior? i've seen it happen but that's pretty weird cause we go same school. now i'm just fantasizing. anyways so yeah i just wanted to let the world know, i am not mourning over Gary anymore and when i do mention his name in my blogs or whatever it is because of friendship NOT relationship. capeeeeesh? (: i'm gonna love you with my lifeeee! relient k - into you ; i need to be a better listener! reminddd meeeee! and that's the reason whyyyyyy you make me feeeel! . here's a secret you probably don't know about me, it's not a secret but more of a random fact. if you're on the phone with me late at night and i'm still on my comp and you're not talking or falling asleep then i'll just start singing to you LOL! i might not sing well but it is a way to keep me entertained and the person i'm on the phone with! i admit it, i love to sing<33 but i don't sing to anybody =/  so shady huh hehehe hohoho i can go on and on about random shit but idk what else to say. so blog more some other timeeeee my lovesssss! :]

define perfection? someone who has flawless skin, who is smart, caring, patient, gorgeous hair, no acne? what is it? people have been telling me to stop doing this and do more of that. i understand i have some flaws, as all you people do but is it really necessary for me to completely morph and change out of those habits? if we were all great listeners or whatever then this world would be so boring. i understand there are a few things people need to change about themselves but it IS their choice if they want to change or not. for instance, i can tell my sister to be less naggy but as long as i don't think she is naggy then there is no problem. maybe YOU should change how you view me and we'll be cool then. ever though of THAT!!! hubert! salad fingers! i love rusty spoons! another weekend gone, i didn't do anything this weekend either except for working on my projects and filming. i'm really hoping toga isn't canceled this Friday ): i am REALLY looking forward to it. we're not going toga shopping/making until this Wednesday. so long from now x_x i'm sick. so sad ): i have a bruise on my right elbow because i was swinging my camera and it got mad and hit me, haha. how is everything you ask? everything is FINE. just fine. i am not one to complain, what am i kidding, i ALWAYS complain. i'm never satisfied for some reason, as i have said in my December 2006 blog. scary how i remember huh. things seem to be going good. i've learned a lot from a few quotes. i always thought i needed Gary in my life. i was talking to him online a few nights ago and he brought up something and i told him, "i used to rely on you but i learned i don't need you anymore." which is partially true but it is nice to know he has his hand out there whenever i'm drowning. It used to be me trying to please everybody, but i realized i don't need everybody. I got that from a quote hehe. my mandarin play is this upcoming Monday! $%@#^&)^% DRAMA for my momma ): i should go to bed soon. So i see all the seniors are getting ready to graduate and get on with their lives. life is ending. everything is happening so fast. i still remember being in kindergarten sitting on the floor wondering when will i go to high school and such. everyone has someone. jenn has myco,  sheree has donald, winnie has michael and although you may get into arguments or whatever, you know you'll still have them. i know they'll still be there for me but c'mon, there are different needs from a friend that's a girl than a boyf. you can't fulfill my sexual needs unless you have a penis in your pants and take off your mask and you're really jay chou in disguise. LOL jk bout that but yeah you know what i mean. maybe nothing is zooming by fast, maybe this is all a dream and when i die i will wake up and get to re-live every single moment of this and be able to change a few things and make it better. maybe my life is just beginning; yes, it is just beginning.

LOL i just realized my ending is similar to winnies
THUG LIFE! :D

tonight was a pretty interesting night. I didn't go to Lucy's thing or whatever but i'm pretty sure she had a happy birthday! (: so jen&bao came to my house afterschool to do some shit. then lalala and jen had to go to church and bao had to do his shit so yeah. then later on my sisters boyf brought the wii home and bao came over to help me set it up cause according to him "i seemed unhappy so he came to keep me company." then later on i went down to michaels house to pick up super mario brawl and when i was walking i saw bao going into his car and i was like dude thats fcked up, make me walk to michaels house to pick up brawl and you leave. then when i was walking back i saw my house was pitch black and my door was open and i was like fuck shit something is gna happen, why did he bring my sister along? then i walk in my room and back out into the living room and my sister pops out and i scream and bao comes out laughing. -______- i must say, touche. that was a great prank on me LOL! then later on he went to go pick up justin and his sister to come play wii and they left around 11. it was nice. like idk i thought it was more fun doing what i did instead of going drinking or whatever they're doing at lucy's. then we were just talking about friends and idk. it gave me a sense of comfort that like even though i don't talk to justin or bao a lot, that if i were bored or needed anything then they'd be there to be with me. i know for sure jen, winnie, and sheree would do the exact same for me but like someone i'm not even that close with will do that for me makes me feel better about the whole "friendship" they're a complete different crowd to hang out with too lol. they listen to alternatives in their car and idk. they're a lot more chill than i'd expect. hanging out with gary and them is fun but it is a load of drama. what is the meaning of freindship? gare and them didn't even call me or whatever to see if i was going or whatever. is that friendship? they could of chose not to go or stop by my house to say hello but did they? nope. no one called me, i had to call them. is that the meaning of friendship? am i just over analyzing everything? it's two different crowds let's just say. i swear, hanging out with guys is so complicated -_- i'm getting hungry. i don't know. i think it's time for a change in who i hang out with. i am not talking about the girls, i love how each of us are so different and how easy it is to hang out with each other; but i'm talking about guys. sighh i don't know. maybe i'm just over thinking. who knows. all i know is that i DO have friends who care and that is the best feeling of comfort i can have, for now. goodnight<3

make me wish i was in a movie. andrew better not be at her thing cause he told me he wasn't going to go. ima be pretty hotheaded if i found out he went in the end and didn't tell me! >:O but eh, he's known to be shady lol. <33
the weather is cloudy, gloomy, and rainy. i decided not to go out tonight because i am lazy. i just don't feel like going anymore. i just want to stay home and be the emo person i am. i don't know what to type. once again, i am clueless at everything. i have free 400 texts now AND a wii system =) yay mee. blah. right in here when i have time to get in touch with myself lol byeee.