mMmm so he let me lick the wrapper

this song gets me going..heheheh. so i haven't updated for awhile so i guess i should. so then what that phone convo i had with him was on Wednesday! my ap presentation is tomorrow and i am actually shitting bricks right now )= it's going to be so embarassing</3 i hope we get an A or B on it though! thug life. ahah so yeah on that phone convo he found out well he actually knew this whole time i had feelings for him but he knows it's on and off. he says that he feels awkward taking pictures with me and kicking it but i asked why? i mean it's not like i'm enjoying it or anything lol. i still think of us just as friends, nothing more nothing less. yeeeeeeea boy. so then what else ummm and he was talking to me about his love triangle and idk. i dont care, it's his problems. like louis says "if you care less, you hurt less" mothafckenn G! so what if i'm frontin? hahaha =) yep yep yep. so i'm grounded again and phoneless. same shit as always. got me suicidal but i'm not down ahahhhaha. ummm and he was just telling me about his life and stuff. he told me last night he doesn't want to kick it with me cause basically he feels awkward. i honestly don't know why. i do not get butterflies or the jitters or anything when i'm around or talking to him. i get no "sweep me off my feet" feelings. sometimes i'm not even sure if i like you haha. but i know if he were to leave my life, i'd be CRUSHED. like potatoes turned into mash potatoes. mMmm yummy..then last night we were talking and i forgot what it was about but yeah. i had the most weird but best dream EVER! it was my first time dreaming about this lol. so like idk gary and i were yeah. haha it involved...cameras, making out, a bed, OH MY! it felt so real HAHAH. like a lollipop<3 he's freaken weird though, i mean he doesn't wanna kick it with me cause it's going to be awkward? he's tripping balls =/ iono he's freaken weird, i'm not going to do anything lol. it's not like i'm trying to seduce him or molest him or make him ask me out. i can still see other guys even if i have feelings, that's how a pimp does it. hahahahaha =D thinking of that dream gives me the tingles in my stomach haha ^__________^  shortyy wanna thugggg!  guess i'll  end it here. i have to meet up with my group in a couple of hours )= peacee outt!  oh oh and jenn & i have our toga designs ready woot wooot! oh i forgot to mention about sangs bbq on the 18th, might i say it's true; "some of the best nights are the ones you can't remember" hahahaha. loved it. so worth being grounded for ahahahha. yeah that's about it. toodles